From Mama
I am missing you on this your 19th birthday. We all miss you and wish you were here to celebrate and have fun the way we knew you would. You were always the life of the crowd, the jokester of the party, always doing something goofy to make us laugh. Smile down on us son.
Sept.6, 09
Granny E and I went to Tybee Island. Remember last year when you told us that we would all go this year on a family vacation. I walked the beach several times, thinking as I looked at how the water meets the sky, at that given moment, I was as close to you that I could be. I sent a message to Nancy. I know that she will be grieving Billy bad this week. I hope you two are looking out for me and Nancy! I sure wish you could have been with me and Granny E. You would have had so much fun. I am so glad that you got to go to Panama City with Gage before you left. I knew you would have fun like you did that weekend. I am so glad you got to see how beautiful the beach is at sunrise. I miss you baby. Mom loves you so much.
October 26, 2009
Today is the day you became our angel. We have missed you so bad this past year. I would love to hear your voice, to see your smile, today has been so rough. I keep hearing the surgeon tell us that it was fatal. I keep seeing you laying there on life support. I hear the sirens, and the life flight. I keep fighting all the triggers that remind of such a sorrowful night. Words cannot come easy enough to express how bad I miss you. The tears are plenty and the heartache hurts. I dont believe that this date will ever be a normal date in time anymore. We love you and we miss you.
Missing You
This has been a sad week. I just really want to keep you on my mind all the time. I am remembering what a good week we had before you left us. I really hate being here without you. Last week when I went to get groceries, I was so expecting you to greet me at the door, it reminded me of October 24, 2008 when I brought you home all that candy that you and Bill ate. I also bought tacos. Which was the last thing we ate together. I put an extra comforter on the bed, which hasnt been on my bed since the night you died. The sheriff pulled it off the bed for your sister so she would stay warm outside, while they investigated. I got my gray hoodie out to wear to work, which I bought 2 days before you passed. My other gray hoodie got taken when you left it at the square skateboarding. I think about your silly smile, and I am hearing a lot of songs on the radio that you would have enjoyed. I miss hearing your guitar. I just miss you son. I love you as much today, as the day you were born.
Oct. 7, 09
October 7, 2009.
Hey baby. It's going to be sad all month. Ashley and I were talking about how the weather is reminding us of when we were with you this time last year. I am hearing your favorite songs and bands on the radio everytime I get in the car. I know that I am probably going to un-nerve everyone around me talking about missing you. But I cant help it. I do miss you son, miss you so badly.
